Today I am thankful for another day of life. By good bud “Caly” is letting us sleep in her spare room for now but we discovered that the plan she came up with to help us won’t work. She owns her mobile home but has a lease agreement with the owners of the park her home is set in. She has ESRD and isn’t making enough money to survive, more so now because her employer paid insurance is forcing her to go on Medicare B but we just found out that she has to pay the premiums for Medicare part B plus the premiums on her employer paid insurance. Originally, she thought she could help us by saying that I was her caregiver because of her health and that would give her a roommate and a safe person in the house in case she has a stroke like the last time when I found her sitting on her living room couch alone. Come to find out, that if the landlord objects to my being here, they can request that “Caly” prove she is disabled and needs 24-hour care in order for the landlord to make “reasonable accomodations” for a loss of revenue because I’m not paying rent. “Caly” can’t afford to go on disability even though she qualifies because she would only get a little over $1,000.00 a month. The landlords just sent everyone in the park a notice of all the rents going up to $647.00. “Caly’s” prescriptions alone add up to hundreds of dollars, add to that utilities, food and insurance copays, her mortgage payments and car payments and you will see that she is paying out more than she’s bringing in. If she can’t afford to keep her home, she will be forced to live out of her car. I doubt this is a good situation for a dialysis patient.
My teenager overheard us talking late last night and my heart broke. She told me she just couldn’t go back to living out of a vehicle. She told me before that she couldn’t take being homeless and would rather commit suicide. I told her that I will do what I can to make things better but it’s not going to happen overnight. At least the mini-van is a decent one in a lot better condition than our run down rv was. I know this is bad timing since tomorrow is her first day at the local high school out here. “Caly” lives in a rural town and there isn’t much out here. The only thing that will save us is the mini-van.
My youngest was up all night vomiting because she caught a bad cold and watching her made my stomach turn to knots. She is prone to sinus infections like I am and I can’t help but wonder if it’s because we spend alot of time outdoors. I am praying that I don’t have another migraine seizure. The last one put me in the emergency room and I was paralyzed for a week. The last thing I need is to be incapacitated behind the wheel yet somehow I drove that old rv up a hill to get help because I could feel the left side of my body going numb. I racked up a hospital bill that I still can’t afford to pay back because of that incident. The babysitter I had at that time was a godsend. They parked my rv at a friend’s garage and let me sleep in their room because I couldn’t walk and my motor skills took awhile to come back “online.” The specialists and doctors I got sent to see originally diagnosed me with Meniere’s Disease but then said it wasn’t that. One specialist said he suspected that the migraine/seizure thing I had did something to me because to this day, I still have bouts of vertigo. I suspect, that is the accumulated affects of working two jobs seven days a week for years. For us, it doesn’t matter when the doctor says “go home and rest.”
Today I fill out FAFSA forms for another two years of college. The thought occurred to me that thanks to our new president, there will be more educated homeless people than ever before. The new program for single mom’s to go back to school is great but what good is a degree if there are no jobs in the field you studied for? The student loans I have are due immediately upon graduation if I’m not in school. Tomorrow I will make my first drive in the mini-van to put my extra stuff in. I told “Caly” that the only thing we will have on us is our dufflebags of clothes and sleeping bags so that we are ready to leave in a second.
Another thing I am thankful for is free internet at the local libraries!